Real Things

I slept 11 hours last night. Woke up at noon. I needed to catch up on my sleep so don't judge. My head was achy and my throat was sore and I couldn't breathe through my left nostril. I was coming down with something. Or maybe it was allergies...but I don't recall having allergies.

And my hand, my right hand, was contorted into a hideous claw. All week during manager training, I had been wok cooking and those things give you arthritis injections like for real. Through blurry eyes I looked at my right appendage and thought, Is it worth it?

Tingling bolts of lightning shot through my fingers as I tried to flex it. It was going to be a long day. I literally slid out of bed like a snake. My muscles weren't cooperating and I lay on the carpet floor for about ten more minutes before my brain kicked in, Come on, newbie, welcome to the real world. You're an adult now.

Today was my day off though. Thank god. They time these days off perfectly because they know that by now your body is a pail of smush peas. My reflection in the bathroom mirror doesn't look like me. The eye cream isn't working. Fuck, since when do 23 year olds need eye cream? And there's a pimple on my nose. I smear some toothpaste on it and some on my toothbrush too.

The day was nice so I decided to read outside of my apartment. The breeze was gorgeous and the sun was creeping around the way and so I decided to tan my legs.

The hours droned on and 3 o'clock rolled around which brought about the local kids playing in the courtyard. They were too loud for me continuing to read so I went back inside. Kids would be scared of the crazy lady with bags under her eyes and a glob of toothpaste on her nose anyway.

Dinner with Nancy and Andy. Andy's uncle was in town and so we all ate at Rudy's BBQ which was fabulous and the counter boy gave me a free soda which made me feel good. His uncle had n accent since he was from Wisconsin and it makes you wonder how accents come about if we're all speaking English for the most part here in the States. It was funny.

I finished off the day watching Sideways on HBO with more toothpaste on my nose. Then I did some more reading because it opens me up. I've been reading a lot of Jewish novels lately. Not particularly about Judaism but characters related to that faith. And it got me thinking about life and love and the aspects where I am lacking in those categories and thought Some things just aren't real, and they never will be real and things do not become real simply because we want them to be so...